Wishes

It has been said to be careful what you wish for. For years I wanted to be able to work at home and do my writing. I was able to do that, its just not that easy.

Its so difficult to keep my mind on what I need to do every day. I have my dogs and my chickens, I could spent time playing with the dogs. There is always something on TV and oh yes, I am in front of the computer with the Internet and I could spent loads of time on You Tube or whatever.

I could journal or do 'research' otherwise known as window shopping on the Internet on subjects and clothes that find my fancy. Since I am the only one that knows how much I really work, its so easy to mess around. In my recent tweets I keep talking about doing my paper work, just as a way of being accountable to some one. See I'm really working hard, and if I wasn't I would have the time stamp to show just how long ago I said something about working hard.

Is it the freedom that I wanted or just to stay home? A little of both. Its nice not to be in my old office and smell like smoke when I come home. (My old boss was a heavy smoker.) It is nice to go to the kitchen for lunch and pull out left overs. Its nice to pet my dogs and take a break with them.

In the end its not bad, as long as I don't run to the store everyday and I don't go visit friends that are moms and at home. Trips to the book store are kept to a just a few and the mall is forbidden except on weekends. That one I keep very well, I know the damage I can do in one day and I go when I have permission.

As for my exercise, I can clear the living room of dogs and turn on a belly dance DVD. That and a good breakfast get me going, once I get done dancing I can really get to work. So far I have been able to get things done, that's a plus.