Thursday, March 19, 2009

Dreams

In one installment of the Simpson’s a young boy, Ralph is told by the teacher to take a nap. He says, “Oh boy sleep, that’s where I’m a Viking!”

It’s that the same for all of us? We can fly or be a different person, bolder than we would normally be. In a few recent dreams I got a bunch of tattoos on my hands, neck and chest. Exactly the places I would never get a tattoo.

I also saved the day when a fellow work mate ordered up a film crew to his shop and then promptly took off without letting anyone know where he was going. I was called along with my co-worker Chris and we had to go save the day.

In the goals that I try to reach out for I get very upset when things don’t come together as fast or the way the way that I want them to. It could be from a lifetime of TV viewing and wanting things to get wrapped up in a half-hour. Or it could be my own ego wanting things go be just so. Sure there are things we can’t control, and it still sticks.

The book project I have been working on is about making a success out of failure. It has been difficult to keep positive about the whole process. Ironically the book is about some one that is trying to make a positive out of a negative situation. To finish this project I had to do that by keeping the thought, “No matter how bad these jobs are, I can use them for material in the book.”

That way of thinking has got me through a lot of bad times. And even now, getting a rejection letter from an agent and my husband is sick and we have to go on a road trip that we don’t want to go on. I want to cry and wallow in self pity…….and then I think, I could use this in another story. I want to even push that out of my head so I can whine more, but then, I really can’t. I have to go on and I really want to see my book published and I have to keep going to see it through.

The bummer thing is that I am going inland for my trip and I would rather go to the beach. I want to lie in the sand and hear the ocean next to me. I really need to get back out into the water; it will make me feel better. I dream of the waves pounding on the Hawaiian shore and the blue waters and it cheers me up. I have a dream of attending my book party and I don’t want to miss that. Yes I still have dreams and goals I want to see come to fruition.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Cheap Seats

In these hard times, we need little pick me ups. Anything on discount and free are the things I am looking for. Most of the theater groups and orchestras’ are giving out discounted performances. Also there are a lot of events at South Coast Plaza that have free drinks and eats.

We were able to see a musical recently since there was a discount on some of the seats. They called it their “economic stimulus rates”. Keep an eye out for such discounts and ask for them. FedEx Kinko’s gave out free resumes the other day.

If you have any cash left store closings or moving can be a godsend. With Circuit City going out of business people can get new flat screens at dirty cheap prices. The shop where I get my corsets is having a moving sale and I hope to get in on some good deals this Friday.

We recently found a nice seafood restaurant that has reasonable prices all the time on dinners. It was about 50.00 for two, with wine and dessert. It’s The Seafarer Inn located in Whitter on Whittier blvd. It is mostly an older crowd but they do have good scallops and nice calamari. I know these prices still are not cheap for everyone, I just use them as a example.

If we don’t look a little harder and find these discounts, we end up staying home all the time and that can just get depressing. Sure I have my chickens that will start laying eggs by the summer and my dogs. But they are only entertaining for so much.

We are also going to see Lady Ga Ga in San Diego this week. Her tickets were hard to come by and some people on Ebay and Craig’s list were holding out for a lot of money. That’s great but if they hold to them for too long, you are going to get stuck with tickets you didn’t use. People just don’t have money to be spending tons on concerts.

We have been getting season tickets for the Pacific Symphony Orchestra every summer. This year we are going to have to cut back to only a few seats. We have hosted a lot of our friends over the years but we just can’t do it this year. I am so glad we had a big group for the last performance last summer. We didn’t know that it would be so different for us this year.

Things I am grateful in these hard times, being able to borrow a top for my belly dancing performance. The fact that I can invite my friends to a place that doesn’t have a cover charge, it makes it easier to advertise. I have my croc pot to fill up with beans and eat for a while. I am also not too proud to get the cheap seats. Sure they might be in the back, but I have been buying nice things to wear over the years and I can still look decent, no matter where I sit.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Right now

I have not been able to go out the beach with all this rain. I do take care and I don’t go out after a rain storm, too dirty. It has also been cold and I would need my booties as well. Not that much fun to surf like that, but it can be done.

In the mean time I have been raising my chicks and they are getting bigger every day. It true I need to pay attention to them right now. For exercise I have been keeping up with my dancing and I have an upcoming performance March 8th at Coffee Haven in Long Beach. There will be another date April 19th. They are both Sundays and there is no cover charge.

The bad thing is that I haven’t had the time to myself I usually do. Time to clear my head and be alone for a while; right now I am just doing things for everyone else. It’s not that I don’t normally it’s just that I usually get a break. With no break in sight it makes me ants-y.

Right now I have too much time to worry about everything and everyone. I am getting a bit stir-crazy. I miss the taste of salt water and the smell of the ocean as soon as I get to the beach. With the windows rolled down just so I can smell it.

There has been a lot on my plate and a lot to worry about. Times are tough and not getting that much better. The only plain I have is to be more frugal therefore I get some laying hens. The dancing is to get myself some tip money and keep dancing so I lose weight. I don’t want to gain anything and then once its clear get back on my board and just about sink it.

The great thing about all the rain is that my lettuce and tomatoes are growing. As well as my flowers, in the next month or so I should have a good head start to my summer garden.

Yesterday I was stuck in my writing and had to take a walk around the block just to clear my head. I hadn’t slept well either and that hadn’t helped. The thing that was bothering me the most was really being cooped up so much. I did get to go to a show and a reading last week, so it’s not that I have been staying home. I just needed to get some fresh air. Those things are fun but they are city things. I really like being in the water and doing something good for myself. Sometimes I need to go to museums and shows. I also need to get into the water and that’s what is missing right now.