Dreams

In one installment of the Simpson’s a young boy, Ralph is told by the teacher to take a nap. He says, “Oh boy sleep, that’s where I’m a Viking!”

It’s that the same for all of us? We can fly or be a different person, bolder than we would normally be. In a few recent dreams I got a bunch of tattoos on my hands, neck and chest. Exactly the places I would never get a tattoo.

I also saved the day when a fellow work mate ordered up a film crew to his shop and then promptly took off without letting anyone know where he was going. I was called along with my co-worker Chris and we had to go save the day.

In the goals that I try to reach out for I get very upset when things don’t come together as fast or the way the way that I want them to. It could be from a lifetime of TV viewing and wanting things to get wrapped up in a half-hour. Or it could be my own ego wanting things go be just so. Sure there are things we can’t control, and it still sticks.

The book project I have been working on is about making a success out of failure. It has been difficult to keep positive about the whole process. Ironically the book is about some one that is trying to make a positive out of a negative situation. To finish this project I had to do that by keeping the thought, “No matter how bad these jobs are, I can use them for material in the book.”

That way of thinking has got me through a lot of bad times. And even now, getting a rejection letter from an agent and my husband is sick and we have to go on a road trip that we don’t want to go on. I want to cry and wallow in self pity…….and then I think, I could use this in another story. I want to even push that out of my head so I can whine more, but then, I really can’t. I have to go on and I really want to see my book published and I have to keep going to see it through.

The bummer thing is that I am going inland for my trip and I would rather go to the beach. I want to lie in the sand and hear the ocean next to me. I really need to get back out into the water; it will make me feel better. I dream of the waves pounding on the Hawaiian shore and the blue waters and it cheers me up. I have a dream of attending my book party and I don’t want to miss that. Yes I still have dreams and goals I want to see come to fruition.