Recovery

Since my surgery this last summer I have been unable to get back on my board. Its still my goal to get back out there.

Surfing has been helpful for me to calm down and deal with all that I have to do. Its my time to myself and time to recharge. Looking into the ocean and letting the water keep you up is such a fun and relaxing feeling.

I'm still land locked for now and I walk my dogs and keep busy. While I don't like my job, at least I have been off my feet and lost some of the weight I had gained while in recovery.

Last night I saw some truly inspiring performances and it makes me want to get out there and dance and perform again. I haven't been able to do my belly dancing since I have to work most Sunday nights, the time I used to perform. I will find a way to get back out there.

I do need to get back to all the things I love, the things that make me feel good about myself. If I don't I'll go crazy. The job moral is low and the work offers have not been coming in. The thought of going into the xmas season in retail is depressing. Yes, I'm grateful I have work, its just really hard on my feet.

The things that have helped is my weekly visits to get a massage and my own foot creams. If it not for the cooling peppermint creams, forget it I would be in so much pain.

Having some time alone helps as well. Since as I get older the more I find, I really don't like people. A few, but I really want to be home with my dogs and chickens and reading. The road of recovery has not been easy, but its coming to an end. Soon I will be back out on my board. :-)