There Yet?

I try my best to keep active and take care of my dogs by walking them. In the last few weeks I have lost 5 lbs. The truth is, I need to lose like 40 more pounds to be at a good weight for myself and my health.

I am no where close to where I need to be. It can be like that in other areas in my life as well. In the last few years I have had a lot of financial set backs. I am no where near where I should be. I have been looking for jobs and have an interview next week. I don't know where I will get the energy to do the things I need to, but some how I will try to get it all done.

As far as my book goes, I am no where near to having it published and I really wanted to have that done by now and be moving on to my next project. I haven't even been working on anything new, not until I can get this 1st project off the ground.

It has not been easy getting knocked down in business dealings and it makes you feel like you are taking ten steps back. As I try to move forward with my goals there are other road blocks and they have to be dealt with. Like, how do you help your family when you don't have a job to contribute money to the bills? It makes you feel useless and as I have said before that is why its called a depression. When you feel so low, how do you find the courage to go out and promote yourself as a good employee?

For myself I have to write down my good qualities and that is hard. I am hard on myself and I think about all the things I have to do better and not about the things I do well. Still I write down, Things I like about me today. In that I can find some redeemable things that will make a good writer, employee and friend. Am I there yet? Not by a long shot. I just keep walking straight ahead.