Meditate

I guess that is why I really go out to the beach. With all that I have to do, I just need time to stop and think and relax a bit. I had my belly dance recital and I had been practicing everyday like a mad woman.

Taking out my board last Friday was just what I needed. To get out in the fresh air and think and relax and feel the cold water at my feet and taste the salt water running down the back of my mouth.

At my spot I unloaded my board and checked out to see who was in the water. The waves were mellow, yet again and there were a quite a few long boards out there. The day was overcast and my butt was freezing on the way home. Thank goodness for seat warmers!

What did I have to think about? The fact that I am not skinny and yet I was going to belly dance in front of a live audience. Would they think I was a dumb fat girl that didn’t realize she was fat and somehow was disillusioned and thought she was 22 again and really hot? I know that those kinds of things are left over from my family. The other girls were not perfect either, that helped a lot.

There is also the fact that I have been dancing so much, it is helping me to keep my waistline down. One of the many reasons I love doing this, sure it’s fun. Helping me lose weight so much better!

The belly dancing is helping me lose weight and my stomach is smaller, which helps my surfing. Surfing makes me feel good and I was in a great mood the whole day. During the day I work on this blog or my book. The belly dancing makes me feel sexy and confident and that helps me work on my book and feel confident about my work as a writer.

It does all seem to keep feeding and helping each other. A symbiotic relationship so to speak. I do feel a lot better these days that is for sure, and when I am in the sand drying off, it’s the sort of thing I meditate on.